Ah Life

yeah, life has sort of had me down this semester. it has been a bit rough, but God is faithful and i know that this is all a part of his plan to make me love Him more. it is hard for me to even explain what was so bad. a big part of it had to do with an amazing relationship that some how went bad and the rest has just been a spiritual battle i think. i've lacked a lot of joy in my heart even when nothing around me had changed at all. sometimes i just feel a dark heaviness in me. i don't know. God is good and He promises peace and joy and life to the full! He loves me well and He will fight this battle for me. that is comforting and i pray that i would believe that! i am blessed.

it was funny to me to read that last entry that i posted. it was quite awhile ago and stuff sure has changed. i was dating a boy and was pretty much head over heals for him. i don't know what happened, but it got real messed up. i think we sort of rushed things/i freaked out/we were both very selfish. i don't know, but i miss what it was. i miss who he was. i miss how he loved me so well. i miss being able to encourage him. he is amazing, but i don't know where that man went. we had a good relationship and i don't know where that went.

i pray for us a lot, but i am getting to a point where i don't know if there is hope anymore. i don't know if it will be fixed, or if i even want it to be fixed. as of now, i don't. he freaked on me recently and doesn't want to talk for a few weeks. that is fine, but i might be gone when he decides to come back...

hold fast to what is good.

I Hate that Freakin' Bird

Ah yes, that freakin' bird. You know that means I am at home. We have so many pets, it is ridiculous. We could never have pets when I was younger. We only had one stupid cat that was real mean to everyone except mom. Then it died and we get nothing. Ok, we did have hermit crabs I guess. Thank goodness for Buddy, that's all I'm sayin'.

Well...it is April already. That is crazy. I am at home this weekend for Easter and so far that is going well. I enjoy being somewhere where people take care of you. It feels good to be taken care of right? Yes, I think so.

I love life right now...it is so good. Tate is home again and all of my friends are blessings. Of course there is also the new boyfriend, who is pretty amazing as well. I am way excited for camp, which happens soon, but pretty sad that life changes soon also. I'll be walking down that hill! Time flies, eh? Well, this is somewhat boring, so I will go ahead and just end it there.

God is so good and we all need to trust Him MORE! He knows what He is doing, believe it or not. That is all.

Spring Break New Orleans Baby!

Spring Break has once again come to an end. It was definitely one of the best I have ever had. It was so good!

I headed down south to New Orleans, Louisiana for my fourth Katrina Relief trip. It is pretty amazing that you can still see so much distruction even after so many months.

A group of us went back to Pass Christian, Mississippi where we had been before and got to see our Bonnie again as well as some sweet people from the community. It was a blast. Danielle and I washed dishes for two days straight! I am just glad that Bonnie won't have to do it now. We then finished the week in New Orleans and gutted out almost two houses in two days. The group I was in was so great. Real hard workers and real loving hearts. It was a great great great experience. I say it again....it was great! Another plus was that I got to see my Tate again! She is da bomb and she hooked Danielle and I up with some VIP sleeping quarters. Thanks girl....I love you so much for so many reasons!!

Also, Andersen Cooper from CNN talked on my cell phone.

So...needless to say break was awesome. God once again showed His power, love, and grace through this tragedy and I was able to serve Him along side some amazing people! Sweet huh? Yes!

Human Anatomy= The Plaza

I pretty much really love this color.

Ok, so Emily Ashcraft pretty much figured me out and found the Jen Blog. Sorry Tate, I hope you aren't mad that one of your fans is looking at my blog and Emily I am sorry I kept this from you. It really was such a dilema in my heart. Anyway...let's all be friends??

Pretty funny story:
Today I got to my Human Anatomy Class and went up to my usual seat in 130 Budig to sit by my peeps that are in there. I am sitting there pulling out my notes and all of a sudden there is a fountain of carbonated beverage raining down on me. I am totally not exaggerating...it was a flowing fountain that could probably be put in The Plaza. My friend Al, who was next to me opened up this flavored water crap and it totally exploded, rained on her head, and sprayed anyone within a ten foot radius. It was incredible and hilarious. Everyone looked at us and I was crackin' up as Al looked up at me with carbonated water running all down her glasses and said, "Well, I guess I am not going to be in Anatomy today." Poor Al. It was good though. Real good.

So...there is my life I guess. Pretty exciting eh?? I must now continue my afternoon of homework and diligent studying. (I am also a liar.)

The Light at the End of the Tunnel

I am now in my last semester of college. Scary?? Uh, yeah. Really good too though, because that means soon I will be done with homework and crap like that. Sweet.

So...life is amazing right now and God gets the credit for that. I am ready to live up this last semester here at good ol' KU and then see where life leads. Well, I got an internship, so I guess the next step is actually already planned. Yeah, its good.

This was a lame entry and it has been awhile since I've written anyway. I guess to summarize the last month, break rocked. I loved being home, DCC was a blast, and the Mississippi trip was incredible in so many ways. I got over some certain boy issues and encountered some new ones. Life will always give ya somethin' eh? So, thats it. I loved break and am sad it's over, but I am ready to live it up and party hard! Oh...wait...I'm not actually going to do that. Not in a bad way anyway.

Goodnight to you all. (Or just you, Tate)