ah, the first snow...everybody loves that day! pretty soon we will all hate snow and the winter, but for this first one of the season we are all darn excited. i work in the little kid schools now and it is way more likely for them to cancel little kid school than it is for them to cancel big kid school. i remember one year they cancelled the busses on campus at big kid school before they cancelled classes. some people were trapped on campus, their homes miles away. ridiculous. but! today is a different story...for me anyway. while my roommates get up early to finish homework and study, i get to stay in my sweat pants all day! holler. no complaining here. everybody loves a good snow day.
church was really amazing the other day. tim keel, the pastor talked about james 3:1-12. the main point of it was telling us to love people with our words. it asked how can we use the same tongue to praise god that we use to hurt others? good point. he touched on sarcasm, criticism, and gossip and gave a loving alternative to each one: sincerity, encouragement, and covering. man, it really hit me. i am good at loving people with my actions, (most of the time) but i do not do it well with my thoughts or words. i am really good at gossip and not standing up for a friend. i am also an expert sarcasm speaker and i guess sometimes that can hurt people. stuff that doesn't need to be funny i make funny. why? the criticism happens mostly in my head, but that isn't good either. i can't encourage a friend with my words and in my head think they are ridiculous. that isn't love at all. my prayer for this week has been that i may have more compassion on my friends. that i would love them with all my heart and be able to offer them sincerity and love in all i do. it is hard, but good to have in my mind. i love god and offer praise to him...i want the same tongue that speaks those praises to love my friends too.
so there it is. life is good and god is faithful. i am blessed and i am loved. god is faithful, god is good.
Ah yes, another thanksgiving day has come and gone. it wasn't the best one, but it was pretty darn good. what really makes a thanksgiving good anyway? it is a day that we set aside to give thanks right? well geeze, i have a ton to be thankful for. i am blessed beyond belief because i have a marvelous family and our table today was full of delicious food. not to mention, we were in a warm house and we all have cars that we drove over to grandmas. PLUS we all have jobs and friends and so much more than that. so...let me re-phrase my first attempt to describe my thanksgiving day: it was amazing and full of more blessings than i probably noticed! i am thankful and should be so every single day when i wake up in a warm bed under a roof and can then walk to a cupboard that is full of food. i can also call my parents and siblings any time i need and they will be right there no matter what, loving and supporting me. dang. i wish i could understand how sweet that is. unfortunately i don't think any of us know how to appreciate stuff until we don't have it anymore. sad right? well, lets stop that! praise the lord for all the blessings you have! even if life seems to be sucking, we are still promised peace and love from our heavenly father. he'll give life to the full! his grace is sufficient.
happy turkeys!
yeah, life has sort of had me down this semester. it has been a bit rough, but God is faithful and i know that this is all a part of his plan to make me love Him more. it is hard for me to even explain what was so bad. a big part of it had to do with an amazing relationship that some how went bad and the rest has just been a spiritual battle i think. i've lacked a lot of joy in my heart even when nothing around me had changed at all. sometimes i just feel a dark heaviness in me. i don't know. God is good and He promises peace and joy and life to the full! He loves me well and He will fight this battle for me. that is comforting and i pray that i would believe that! i am blessed.
it was funny to me to read that last entry that i posted. it was quite awhile ago and stuff sure has changed. i was dating a boy and was pretty much head over heals for him. i don't know what happened, but it got real messed up. i think we sort of rushed things/i freaked out/we were both very selfish. i don't know, but i miss what it was. i miss who he was. i miss how he loved me so well. i miss being able to encourage him. he is amazing, but i don't know where that man went. we had a good relationship and i don't know where that went.
i pray for us a lot, but i am getting to a point where i don't know if there is hope anymore. i don't know if it will be fixed, or if i even want it to be fixed. as of now, i don't. he freaked on me recently and doesn't want to talk for a few weeks. that is fine, but i might be gone when he decides to come back...
hold fast to what is good.
